Delusions of Grandeur

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So when we had our usual staff meeting today my bosses told me that I don’t have to do the transcription of the focus group tapes because it’s something they can shove off on a temp and they would rather being using me for more meaningful work instead. I wanted to fall down on my knees and kiss their feet when they told me this, although I restrained myself to a simple heartfelt “thank you.” You have know idea how tedious those tapes where….plus everybody has these crazy accents so I have to keep rewinding to catch what they’re saying….just as I adjust to one accent and start thinking in it somebody else cuts in and I have to reset my mind. I know that sounds completely idiotic, but it’s truly the way it works. Now we just have to figure out the hiring process for the temp since we still don’t have anybody hired for the department HR position…..oh how I miss Eileen. She took forever to do anything but at least she knew what had to be done. Hopefully whoever takes over will have the same knowledge and just be quicker, but I would settle for the same knowledge.

In other work news, I’ve now been told that I’m to submit a plan of action for obtaining my bachelor’s degree so that my bosses can hold me to it, they’ve told me repeatedly that I have to get this degree so they can promote me to the position they want me in instead of the peon position I currently hold. If it weren’t for university policy I would already be in the higher position, but I guess that’s what I get for changing my major umpteen times. Definitely sad since the other position pays $50,000 a year which is more than double my current salary. Current plans are to start school again during the second summer session, I’m really hoping they take all my transfer credits so I don’t have to retake all those classes, but we’ll see what happens.


Just realized I hadn’t updated today and since my fingers are ridiculously cramped from transcribing the focus group tapes all day I don’t feel like typing much so here you go instead.

You tend to be critical of yourself, not always expressing your true desires. You have an interest in health and health matters. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.

hmmmm….seems pretty accurate, wonder what nikki would come up with?

You have a love of travel and adventure, and you enjoy sports. You also have a very strong sense of fair play and want justice. You need to learn flexibility. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You must learn to give ‘wise’ service and not be a martyr.

hmm…no wonder I hate this name, half this stuff is way off…I hate sports, I hate everything that I’m bad at 😉 fair play and justice seems pretty familiar, and needing to learn flexibility is right on cue, I think I have a pretty good idea of my self worth and as for needing to be expressive, didn’t my first name just say that I’m relatively demonstrative? Although it is correct in saying that I hate being misunderstood.

Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You have good recuperative abilities. You are determined. You need to learn to give and receive love for love’s sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You must learn to give ‘wise’ service and not be a martyr. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions.

interesting that my middle and last names agree on my need to be more expressive…..guess my first name doesn’t know what it’s talkin’ about eh? Or maybe these are different sides of me, my public side and my friends only side? The rest of it is likely right, I definitely need constant assurance, mostly just because I like hearing nice things, and success is definitely important to me in all things, I’m way to competitive for it not to be.

check out your own name here–>

note to self: learn how to do that linky thing where you get the link to hide behind different words

I recieved this by email and since I refuse to forward chain mail as a general prinicipal (surveys aside) 😉 I’m just gonna post it on here.

Sent in honor of women’s history month…..or maybe beautiful women’s month, I don’t know which, the email says both. 🙂 (thanks katy! I love you too.)


(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren’t there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the ‘good’ living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn’t show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I’d have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, “Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.” There would have been more “I love you’s.” More “I’m sorry’s.”

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute…look at it and really see it .. live it .and never give it back. Stop sweating the small stuff.

Don’t worry about who doesn’t like you, who has more, or who’s doing what.

Instead, let’s cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

Let’s think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally. I hope you all have a blessed day.

Beautiful Women’s Month

Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen.

Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.

Age 15: She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mum I can’t go to school looking like this!)

Age 20: She looks at herself and sees “too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly”- but decides she’s going out anyway.

Age 30: She looks at herself and sees “too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly” – but decides she doesn’t have time to fix it, so she’s going out anyway.

Age 40: She looks at herself and sees “clean” and goes out anyway.

Age 50: She looks at herself and sees “I am” and goes wherever she wants to go.

Age 60: She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can’t even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.

Age 70: She looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.

Age 80: Doesn’t bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.

Send this on to all the women you are grateful to have as friends. Maybe we should all grab that purple hat earlier.

all I can say is……eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…….I can’t wait for this movie, although having seen the newest trailer I’m once again upset because David Thewlis looks nothing like how I pictured Lupin…..and they had done so well with casting up until now. 😦 I am, however, once again convinced of exactly how perfect Alan Rickman is for the part of Snape…..that voice is just too deliciously Slytherin. can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait…….is it june yet? Alright, off to admire the trailer another couple hundred times and then I’m gonna go to bed.

P.S. Did anybody else notice the over exaggerated arm grab scene with hermione and ron, dude, that is gonna be all over annoying icons everywhere, probably already is, sigh…….


Posted on: March 24, 2004

The weather is really quite disgusting today, it suddenly got cold (in the 70’s so I’m sure the rest of the country doesn’t feel remotely sorry for me) and cloudy and rainy…..the end result is that I’m now incredibly sleepy, all I want to do is go home, curl up in bed and sleep until the sun comes out again. Of course this can’t possibly happen because we’re going to dinner tonight and some random concert so I have to go home, get ready at light speed and leave again… poor dog probably hates me right now, but there’s unfortunately not alot I can do about it. Anyhow, I suppose I had better go find some caffeine so I can make myself useful around here.

Look at the mood listing for your last 20 lj entries and answer the following questions:

1. How many of your moods are unique (used only once)
answer: 13

2. What is your most used mood?
answer: 5 amused and 4 bored

3. How many entries do you have that do not list a mood?
answer: 0

4. Which do you have more of, happy moods, angry/depressed moods or neutral moods?
answer: happy moods, thankfully because I don’t quite know where to classify “bored” so I wouldn’t have known the answer otherwise.

my mood list


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